wAt M i dOIng NoW

mm..its been sometime since my las post before sem break.. frens keep askin when m i goin 2 update my blog.. haha.. sorry guys.. basically so far i had a sem break whic full of activities, tasks and so on.. somemore i m workin s part time doin office work at my aunt's place. however, this eventful holiday brings me lots fun and enhances my consciousness towards my surroundin too.. i had couple times of gatherin with my buddies, frens, previous form teacher n classmate.. thru these gatherings, i found tat all relationships need a supreme effort from the bottom of our heart to maintain, not only between couple.. if neither 1 of us carry out the 1st move.. we might lost it anytime sooner or later..frenship, family, mateship n..those who we think their r special.. mayb we cant meet each other often, we r no longer s close s how we used to hav in the past.. but our existence cant be denied. so..this sem break, i try to meet who ever i can.. try to do watever i can for the people around me.. cos i know tat i won hav any mor lon holiday in my comin sem breaks.. besides planning games for KBS coming internal youth camp, i was overwhelmed with the excitement of scouting.. SCOUTING LIFE~~~I'M BAC~!!.. these days i joint my scouts famili in their D.C. preparation.. the atmosphere had whet my ardour of scouting.. it called bac my memories when i was a junior o senior scout.. the days we started to gain our scoutin spirit, the days we learnt to enjoy scoutin, the days we make this uniform body s part of our life, lik a famili.. n finally..i got 2 see all these bein built among my juniors slowly.. though i m no longer a young scout, but i reali hav a lot of fun with those kids. different generation, different style and mind-set, but i believe our scoutin spirit will reach the same level 1 day.. this "famili" remains its position in my billboard list.. same as my bro, sis, uncle n aunty scouts.. this is wat our founder Lord BP said..a worldwide brotherhood.. a big famili..

year 1 sem 1...final ends, holiday starts!!!

hmm.. so as what my title shows.. my final exam for Financial Economics year 1 semester 1 ends.. which means my 3 months holiday starts!!! haha..honestly i cant wait to go home, miss my family and miss everything back in home town. but before that, i definitely won't forget to have a memorable vacation with friends.. at first we planned for a trip to Pulau Redang, but we cancelled it due to "monsoon". so we ended up at Genting for 3D 2N..in fact, it was a great trip for us because couple of us took our 1st try on several extreme outdoor game in theme park such as cockscrew and space shot..especially Yik Mun, Yeun Hin and Kah Weng.. haha.. as what i wished, we did bring wonderful memories to everyone in this trip which gave this semester a nice ending..and i believe our relationship gains better..

we're taking a snip of Starbucks Coffee with cheese cakes.. yummy~

2nd day..have fun in theme park.. Yeeeha~!!!

we took a stroll around 1st world hotel & were attracted by this christmas view..

sing K.. F.I.R rock!

he just loved be to "cute".. haha.. "pikachu"s his favourite

our childhood's favourite snak..

my 1st time.. haha..

a very good try for myself..

it's fun actually..

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

happy holiday to all my fellow friends in kampar and Utar. it's a good start to all of us in our 1st semester as an undergraduate. new environment, new friends, new "family member", new life and new vision for our future.. congratulations! we all had done very well to cope with the changes. all the best to you all.. take care and looking forward to meet everyone back in Kampar 3 months later.. :)

Yeah~i am going back to my lovely hometown in 2 days time.. Countdown~haha.. ^^

第一次为了考试感到如此挫折。。

前两天考了Management Principle
2 days ago, i sat for my Management Principle paper
前两天也是自己长这么大第一次为了考试而流泪
2 days ago, the first time i cried for my exam in my 20 years life
第一次因为考不好而如此挫折
the very first time i suffer setbacks
第一次考试脑袋空空，但也只能怪自己没有做足准备，没有把笔记记牢
the very time i enter the exam hall with empty mind, but i just can blame myself for not being well-prepared
第一次在考场上如此的无奈和无助
the very first time i felt helpless and frustrate
第一次在走出考场后打电话给妈妈有想哭的感觉
the very first time i cried while calling my mum once i stepped out from the hall
第一次因为考不好而对妈妈感到深深的愧疚，让她失望了
the very first time i felt so sorry and guilty towards my mum cos i let her down
第一次。。被考试的“气势”打败了。。
the very first time..i was defeated by exam..

~L.O.V.E.~

这一晚，从朋友那儿收到了这封电邮。。
看了它，心里突然沉了一会儿。。
这些话语，那些画面，依然清晰的烙印在脑海中。。

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爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，不论做什么事情，只要能一起，就是好的，但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，你开始发现了对方的缺点，於是问题一个接著一个发生，你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，有人说爱情就像在捡石头，总想捡到一个适合自己的，但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？她适合你，那你又适合她吗?其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，但是记住人是有弹性的，很多事情是可以改变的，只要你有心、有勇气，与其到处去捡未知的石头，还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？很多人以为是因为感情淡了，所以人才会变得懒惰。错！其实是人先被惰性征服，所以感情才会变淡的。



*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好， 这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！ 现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！



*听到了吗？明白了吗？难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。如果每个人都懒得讲话、懒得倾听、懒得制造惊喜、懒得温柔体贴，那么夫妻或是情人之间，又怎么渐行渐远渐无声呢？所以请记住：有活力的爱情，是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！



*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了， 当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟， 他的男朋友很不高兴的说： 你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了， 我以後再也不会等你了！ 刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了， 她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了



*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境； 女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！ 接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上， 此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。你体会到了吗？



*其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时， 很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！懂了吗？当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。那并不代表你会选择他。*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。



*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发 觉而已呢？所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！他或许已经等你很久了。。



*当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过来， 完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分



*那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！



*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：



爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；要道歉，也要道谢；要认错，也要改错；要体贴，也要体谅；是接受，而不是忍受；是宽容，而不是纵容；是支持，而不是支配；是慰问，而不是质问；是倾诉，而不是控诉；是难忘，而不是遗忘；是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；可以浪漫，但不要浪费；可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

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My Roommate..KAh yIN

day passes by..finally i have come to the end of my Year 1 Sem 1.. finishing 14 weeks of lectures and tutorials, i prepared for my final exam and finally i started my 1st paper today (English for Business). it's not a tough subject but not an easy one either. 5 subjects, 1 down but there'r still 4 to go.. GAMBATEC!!! he..

mm..so that's what i worked on recently in Kampar and also in UTAR..

if i am to take a stroll back to my 4-months uni life in kampar..there's a gal who i would like to mention specially and thank her sincerely. Ladies and Gentleman, let me introduce you all to my roommate--->Siow Kah Yin, who slowly became my 1st choice companian.. honestly, before i was able to meet her in Kampar on 24th May 2008, i was kind of worry once i got to know my roommate is from KL.. (why worry bout "KL"?..it is because i was put in the picture by some seniors that west malaysian were short of friendliness, everyone fight for own benifits..those tales had created a gap between west m'sian and east m'sian, even though the truth shows both lands are parted by South East China Sea. but now, i dare to announce that this is all deceitful..at least the people i met here are all nice and forthcoming).. ok, back to my primary topic..so i came of course. at the mean time i kept contac with this gal until i met her outside my current "house".. emmm..my 1st impression of her is cool..not cold-blooded "cool", but the common "cool" that we usually use in daily verbal communication. she's kind of sporty and quite sociable.. oh ya!!! there's 1 thing i would like to mention is both us used to be in the same campsite during NS in Sibu (Junaco Park), she's from Alpha group (same as Poh Ling and Timothy) whereas i was in Charlie group. it's so sad and shame that she kept me in mind well yet i had no idea towards her. hehe.. (P/S: SKY, i'm really sorry about this..i promise i'll commit you to my memory from now on) the rest of the days, we began to discover more bout each other and gain our "mateship".. we did lots of sharing and we're continuing it every now and then..we sacrificed our sleeping hour and chatted until late night (=.=..actuallt the next day both us have class at 8am.."fish" in class lo..ha..), she woke up early in the morning just to accompany me for a breakfast before i went KL, we secretly ready surprises for each other such as "love notes" during chinese valentine on 07.08.08, 5 daily "love reminder" from her while she's away durin study week and so on.. (ehem!!! Don't misunderstand! we're not "lesb"..) hahaha..

P/S: to my old buddies especially tony, kelvin and pin sheng..i know i am quite talkative, noisy and loso sometimes..but i can still communicate well with my roommate..(at least so far i did not get any complain from her..haha ^^'''..)

she wrote me this early in the morning while i was sleeping.. ^^'''


i reply her with this while she's sleeping..ha! @^^@

i prepared this for her during her 2oth birthday week ago..it's just a simple gift from me and i hope she like it.

her "love notes" during study week..

S.K.Y. (Siow Kah Yin)..mm..she's a brilliant gal with strong leadership. according to what she told me, she used to be the very 1st head gal of her secondary school (cool man~@,@), she's incredibly busy during her upper form with both co-cu and academic (so do i during F4 & F5..ha!!). however, sometimes she's charming and adorable like a mummy gal when she shows funny act or stimulated with her favourites..(egg, cakes, "mr. alvin", MKT3 gang..). hehe.. i love chit chatting, fooling and joking with her while both us stay at home..it's entertaining.. and recently we'd planned to move out, couple of us had anxiously started to imaginary "build" and "design" our future home..haha..^^'''cute la..

the end of this sem is just around the corner..3 months of holiday..wish us a great sem break (she's going to Pulau Pangkor, me..Pulau Redang cancelled, so most probably west m'sia trip with coursemates for few days and Genting)..we'll gather at our new home next sem (jan 09). hahaha.. :P *****~thanks gal, i am glad to meet you~*****

“行者”培训营

honestly, this is the most impressive camp i'd ever joint.. it had made changes towards my soul and my thought..deeply.. this motivation camp is called “行者”培训营, organized and promoted by 传闻法师，妙赞法师 and with the help from 菩提工作坊 and others. before i joint this camp, i assumed it might just more or less the same as the others.. actually i heard bout this camp from KBS senior, but i never thought that this camp in fact is the most extraordinary activity i'd ever involved in. the camp was held for 3 days..from 16-18 august at 鹤鸣禅寺 (Jalan Chow Kit, KL), we'r the 16th batch participants. during the camp, we attended talks..sharings..activities..and so forth.. the particular part which took me aback was the game named "Game Of Life" (生命的游戏)..it is really the game of life, you all might wonder what do i mean by that..come, try it then you'll know and store it deeply in your heart which you'll never forget and made it the reminder for your entire life. there were 12 teams of us, it took us 8 hours (3.30pm-11.30pm) to pass this game team after team..at the mean while we're not allowed to have our meal until we got the right solution. my family were on cloud nine when we finally did it..the 2nd group to solve the hurdle. though it's time consuming, but we got pleasure from the activity as we finally be aware of the point which the speaker tried to bring out. (..i nearly cried when the inspector said "yes, you did it..you all passed"..i never felt this joy before..never T_T..) i was so glad to meet my "family" (行者之家), cheerful and lovely family in this camp, from the youngest 20 to the oldest 60. felt like we knew each other somehow before we met..it's heart warming and i will miss them a lot.. through this camp, i had learnt to live again (reborn), to feel my daily life, to observe the surrouding (people and facts), to communicate with myself and to creat a better path for my life.. i love this message from 传闻法师--〉“活在当下，欢喜再做下一次” it had encouraged me to keep on going and doing.. i was so thankfull to UTAR buddhist society for giving me this opportunity, thanks to the founder of this one and the only camp, and thanks to all my merit, my good karma, my positive fate..which brought me to this camp.. i am going to join the 2nd part of next batch if all these advantages come to me again.. :)

pei shan (UKM), me and keen sun (going to london this oct for 2 years bagpacking trip..@@ i wish too..)

pei shan (UKM), me n chui sze (pass USM)..

this cute aunty is lv hong ("green red"), i salute her for her bravery to try youngster's crazy ideas as we tried lots way to find solution for "game of life"..

me, mei xuan, lih ling and winnie at LRT

just arrive in jalan chow kit, on our way to the temple..

this is my group assistant, ms. wu xiao shan.. a charm lady.

this guy named hong jie.. a friendly and funny guy. i cant remember he's graduated from whic local uni.

the environment of Heoh Beng Temple..